I often find myself in a dilemma...... mostly in regard to my being a Deacon in the Catholic Church and my role.
I honestly desire to serve the Church and her people to the best of my ability and in a manner that God would want.
My dilemma is, or at least in the midst of where I find myself so often, unplanned, and definitely not premeditated, but in a situation where I must choose, to be a PEACEMAKER, or firmly stand for what I believe to be TRUTH!
My personality is one that desires peace and comfort, I usually avoid conflict almost at all cost. I am a middle child, 3 older brothers, 2 younger, I fall right into the psychological profile of a peacemaker.
But, I often find that so many people around me just allow untruths to go unchecked. Untruths that have saturated our culture for so long that most people identify them as normal and acceptable, even though they are not only lies, but foster unhappiness, eat away at our souls, and are destructive in their own right. Do I speak up, or do remain silent? What is my role?
To challenge these issues often stirs up reactions, negative reactions, and at times anger.
But what is God asking of me...... To just go through life, spreading peace and love, going through the motions, backing down to people who have strong opinions, even if their opinions and ideas really have no merit, actually are counter Christian, just because they have a loud voice and threaten to make my life uncomfortable, threaten and actually do report me to authority figures with their slant of the truth. Do I remain silent while they form other's beliefs, often claiming to represent the Church's teachings? This will only perpetuate a catechises of error. This will only prolong an entity of Catholics who do not really understand even the basic tenants of the faith.
PRAYER, PRAYER, PRAYER
I hope God helps me with this dilemma. I would never want to act contrary to His wishes, nor do any damage to His church, rather just the opposite, I hope to be a good and faithful servant, but to also be a courageous voice of the truth in a world that is crying out for help!
I am a young deacon, newly ordained, have so much to learn, so far to grow.